Today I am going to write about something weighing heavily on my heart and mind. So as you can tell, this entry will be on a more serious note. The time is fast approaching when the need to explain to Drake about autism is fast zooming down the road. My sweet daughter Jefner and I agonize on when to do this…how to start…what to say…and how to answer questions if he should have any!
This is a road we knew we would travel but it seemed so far away. Now it is just about here. The little man will be eleven years old this year and we can see he is striving for more independence and to be treated like a BIG guy…God this hurts our hearts…how do we help him to understand? How do we choose the right words? How do we know we chose the right words? How do we say things to help him without confusing him?
He seems to be getting to the point where he’s questioning things. Does he know his thought processes are different? Does he feel different? How do we let him know he is just like everyone else while being a little bit different…that he sees and puts together things in a different way. If this is confusing for us, we can only imagine how confusing this is for him?
Are we worrying too much? Will a miracle happen and he’ll say: Oh don’t worry about me…I get it…it’s no biggie? Will he look at us with confusion in his eyes and think we’re just babbling away? Will he get upset because he thinks he’s not the same and now doesn’t know what to do? Maybe in the recesses of his wonderful mind he will get everything we say and feel sad because he knows we feel sad! Could it be that he understands more than we give him credit for…can this be possible? Why is life so hard at times. I know many, many people have it much harder but at this moment I am going to put our pain and fear to the top. Tomorrow we will have a better grip once again…allowing us to be thankful…thankful for bringing us this little ANGEL.
All we can do is hope and pray that when we work up the courage…yes, courage…things will go well. I wonder if the courage is for him or for us…
Dear Franny,
ReplyDeleteMy Ladie's Bible teacher says 12 years ago she adopted a girl and the docs said she had autism and schizophrenia they wanted to institutionalize her at 6 years old. She would not instead she prayed and got involved in deliverance ministries. today Ericka is an 18 year old who drives and just graduated HS she is going to YWAM in the fall. She is articulate, knowledgeable and beautiful. Jesus is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and He is no respector of persons so what he did for he he will do for you!!
This is dear to my heart because another friend had to put her daughter in foster care from it when she was 14 because she was too strong for her. Now at 36 she has had STD's and perpetrator was never prosecuted she can only say a few words and IQ is 30.
I am going on to say that both of my grandsons were born early and in NICU. The one in CA was 10 weeks early and has a shunt after 7 brain taps. We are believing he does not have Autism and believe he is normal, he talks excessively :) and organizes things but falls needing his center of gravity strengthened. He is now 2 and a half years old and just started to walk at 21 months.
The grandson in OR was 8.5 weeks early and is a slow quiet talker, his mom talks for him so his pediatrician mentioned maybe slight autism but we are rejecting that in the Name of Jesus that the spirit of infirmity of Autism is not allowed on any of my grandchildren!
I hope this helps we believe in miracles in Jesus Name!
I would tell him God made him special but there is an enemy that wants to steal his health and then have him pray with you to receive Jesus as his Savior and His miracle working power. Pray the blood of Jesus over his mind and life. Isiah 53:3-6
Love, Barbara
Wow just saw this! I've been sick so haven't been to my blog much. Thank you for the great message. GBY
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